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You Don't Know Me, So Don't Act Like You Do
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[16 Nov 2004|10:06pm] |
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This just might be my final entry.
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[15 Nov 2004|02:56pm] |
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Field trip today, exciting. Went to the state house for recycling. so incredibly boring, but it beats astronomy. oh yeah watch channel 10 news, you just might see me.
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[12 Nov 2004|02:21pm] |
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What would you label me as? Be honest. Just tell me what you would label me as, or, if you know, what other people label me as. Think about it, before you knew me, or knew me well, what did you label me as, and now, if you know me well, what would you label me as? Thanks.
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[10 Nov 2004|05:51pm] |
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Hmmm. I've got this strange feeling that makes me keep thinking about last year, or the year before...It's kind of weird. Seems feelings change with the seasons.
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[10 Nov 2004|01:44pm] |
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Wow, I beat Halo 2 that quick..
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[07 Nov 2004|05:56pm] |
I don't understand why, but it seems some things tend to bother me more than others. Like one of my friends, told me about how one of her friends(who I have met before), is really becoming a "slut". Why does this bother me? Who knows. I've met this girl once...I just don't understand why she would do the things she does. I dunno. Just like when I found out about someone smoking, I was so incredibly dissapointed, it bothered me so much and I can't figure out why, but when I found out other people smoked, it didn't bother me...Hmmm. I don't get it. I just hate to see people do things in their life, that will affect their life in the future...it will affect the way people see them, talk about them...I dunno. I just don't like it.
My advice to all of you: We're still young, immature. We don't know everything. We aren't better than everybody, or anybody for that matter. As of now, we aren't significant to the world as a whole, but everything you do affects the ones you love, the ones you hate, and even people you don't know. Think about what you do before you do it. Don't do things to get recognized, to be cool, to be popular. Don't do things because others are doing it. Don't do things for others, unless you are helping them(within reason). We're only human, humans make mistakes, we have flaws. Don't let your mistakes or flaws get you down. You are significant to your family, your friends, your friends' friends, people you don't even know. For example: My friend tells me about her friend, and look at what it has inspired me to write. I just don't want to see any of you destroy your future, only to be labeled something, be percieved something by your peers. It's not worth it because your peers won't be around you all your life. Be smart, do things that will better your future, but in the meantime, do things to keep you happy. What people think about you shouldn't make you happy or sad. Some people are going to like you, some will be indifferent, and others won't like you. Some people will be nice, some people won't be. Some people will talk shit about you, and some won't. Don't let what other people say or think get you down...you know why they say hurtful things publicly? Because they may have a problem similar to yours, and they want to distract attention from themselves to you, or they may see something good about you, or fear that you may replace them, and distract attention from the good side of you, to the flaws. Every fucking human has flaws, just everybody has different ones. Some people are naturally assholes, they can't help it, some people are naturally followers...Combine assholes with followers...and you know what you get, a bunch of assholes. Assholes are only assholes because they recognize their own flaws and try to cover them up by revealing other peoples flaws. WE ALL HAVE FLAWS SO WHEN SOMEONE POINTS OUT YOURS, DONT LET IT GET TO YOU. Hate only creates hate. When you say something mean to someone, it generates hate. Maybe not immediately, but if you say more mean things to them...Hate grows. Hate spreads. Don't contribute to the hate in this world. I've strayed from the original point of writing this. But I can't help it.I wish people would stop being so quick to distract attention away from their flaws. I keep repeating myself but I have no other way of saying it. THINK REAL HARD. When your talking about something, and the topic is getting close to a subject that would involve something that you don't like about yourself, one of your falws, something of that sort...What are you gonna do? Try and move the discussion in another direction. or in a group of people, if someone says something negative about you, about what you have or have not done, your physical appearance, your friends, family, something you believe in, etc...What do you do? You jump to the defensive. You retaliate with something negative, or...you wait. You wait till you can get them back. There is one flaw that all people share. We all share the weakness to society. We allow ourselves to adapt to society. We alter ourselves to fit into this corrupt, hateful, and ugly society. When we do this...what do we do to ourselves? If we allow ourselves to become a product of our enviroment....It's like a disease...Hate...Envy...Greed...Spite...Corruption...They all spread like a fucking disease...WE ARE ALL SUSCEPTIBLE TO THE DISEASE BECAUSE WE DON'T RECOGNIZE IT'S PRESENCE. FIGHT IT. Don't allow yourself to become a product of our society. Strive for difference. Dont be tainted by what you see or hear on tv, in movies, or what you see your "friends" do, your family do, or your peers do. Whether you know it or not, everything you do or say, is for a reason. Some people's main goal is sex, for others it's popularity, fame, and others it's money. We are all the same because we have goals set in our minds, and if we really truly thought about them we would be sick with ourselves. I've rid myself of these goals as much as I can. This is the one piece of advice I've given people that I have actually been able to follow to a certain degree. Strive for difference. We don't need popularity, sex, drugs, or money for happiness. What do we need to be happy? We need friends. True friends. We need people who will listen to us, people who will care, and try to help. People that will try to make you not listen to the things other people say. I've seen the good and the bad people. I know who's "good", and who's "bad" or who's hasn't been tainted, and who has been. It's a sick world we live in, and we are growing worse and worse. Society is becoming worse and worse, more and more negative, more and more competitive. Strive for difference, fight the evil of this world, don't let it taint you. Be a hero, not a victim. Please, think before you do something. Do things that will truly make you happy, don't do things to add to the way people percieve you. Life is life, you get one chance, and there is no fucking point in wasting it caring about what other people think. You are who you are and nothing can change that.
Oh, and please. Don't fucking make fun of people...just quit that shit. You know what making fun of someone does...it only creates hate...Yeah you get a good laugh out of it for what..a fucking minute. Is that really worth it? I mean, so many people think being socially acceptable is the key to happiness, so when you do that, your shitting on their so called "happiness" You're just participating in this fucked up society which grows worse every day.
Live life the way you want to, go with whatever society does, believes, or do what you think. follow your heart, not your tainted mind. Be YOU, be what you like, do what you like, don't be what society says is okay, don't do what society says is okay.
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[05 Nov 2004|11:48pm] |
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Saw is easily the best movie I have ever seen in my life.
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[04 Nov 2004|02:26pm] |
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Figures...I get the script about these four kids who wanna make a movie about a a dude named cracka who's comin up in the rap game....
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[03 Nov 2004|06:29pm] |
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this kids mom died when he was just 15
left with his pops but pops was a coke fiend
who didn't give a fuck about him
he even thinks that he'd be better off without him
he goes to school with no friends in his mad poor
he misses his mom even though she was a crack whore
comes through the back door so dad wont see
cause after school at 3 he gets greeted with a beatin
he has to go around with no smelly cloths and no socks
while other kids rock nikes and reebok
he's not, happy with his miserable existence
sometimes he has the urge to just say good riddance
grew up around drugs but never thought about tryin it
tried not to become a product of his environment
he tried to sit and talk to his pillow like a psychiatrist
screaming into it why did she have to die
mom was in a program to get off the stuff
I guess she wasn't ready or strong enough
But if she was alive that wouldn't be good either
Cause dad use to beat her everyday and mistreat her
He hates his father but its all he has left
He doesn't want to live but he's afraid of death
But maybe he thinks he'd be better off dead
He grabbed the paper and a pen wrote a note and it said
happiness is all I want but I am trapped by misery
and no one understands or even cares if I just live die
there is only one way out and I am not afraid to take it
it's the only way I see is suicide
he feels a little nervous cause he doesn't no what method
would be the best to end it
he's startin to cry now
time out
he wants to just think it though
life stinks its true
but theres gotta be a better way
a better day might come but it aint likely
it's a constant battle in this life it fights me
he thinks that he's a coward when in fact he's real brave
never gave into temptations that put his mother in the grave
he wants to be saved but no one hears his cry's for help
except for god in heaven still he wants to kill himself
he wasn't brought up to know about god and the bible
his whole short life has been nothing but survival
suicidal thoughts invading his young mind
sunshine is somethin he aint seen in a long time
he cant take the loneliness and the sadness
goes in the other room and gives his dad a kiss
even though he's passed out from the drugs
its still all he has so in a way he still loves him
he wants to join his mom in eternal bliss
got in the bathtub and sliced his wrists
and as he watched the blood pour out of his veins and down the drain
he said goodbye to the pain ...
-Q Strange
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[31 Oct 2004|09:17pm] |
old dirty jews can suck my ballsack if they arent gonna fuckin give me candy
i didnt get shit for candy, and i didnt do shit else cept chill with couple people.
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[27 Oct 2004|10:23pm] |
The Ultimate LiveJournal Obsession Test
| | Category | Your Score | Average LJer | | Community Attachment | 13.98%
You have one or two loyal pals on LJ... But you probably have better things to do with your time. | 22.33% | | MemeSheepage | 22.81%
Only trendy when it's sufficiently entertaining | 28.07% | | Original Content | 51.61%
Using LiveJournal to express a few strong opinions | 38.03% | | Psychodrama Quotient | 28.92%
Known to go off without warning | 17.11% | | Attention Whoring | 9.09%
Low-key and lovin' it | 20.74% | |
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[26 Oct 2004|02:46pm] |
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Hmmm. Fuckin' feel like shit. This week is going by slow. I don't have any plans for this weekend...which blows. I'm skipping monday..November 1st, then there's no school Tuesday, so give myself a nice little vacation. I don't know if I'm going to go tomorrow...depends on how I feel. Ugh. Thought about some things lately..eh. Just found myself wishing for somebody I can't have. Oh well. Fuckin' cut my finger last night. Pain in the ass. Yeah that's bout it. Peace.
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[24 Oct 2004|03:27pm] |
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What y'all doin' for Halloween?
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| War All The Time |
[21 Oct 2004|02:40pm] |
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Standing on the edge of the Palisades' Cliffs in the shadow of the skyline,
Very far away like a lightning rod that couldn't pull the storm from me,
When I was five years old, my best friend's older brother died.
He fell from these cliffs and the river washed him away,
The current pulled him downstream,
And our lives float in the headlines so we park these cars in our parents' garage,
Listen to the lullaby of carbon monoxide.
War all of the time in the shadow of the New York skyline. we grew up too fast now we're falling apart like the ashes of American flags.
if the sun doesn't rise, we'll replace it with an H-bomb explosion. a painted jail cell of light in the sky like three-mile-island nightmares on TVs that sing us to sleep,
They burn on an on like an oil field or a memory of what it felt like to burn on and on and not just fade away,
All those nights in the basement, the kids are still screaming, on and on and on and on.
War all of the time, in the shadow of the New York skyline. we grew up too fast falling apart like the ashes of American flags.
and we're blowing in the wind. we don't know where to land so we kiss like little kids,
We used to be very tall buildings but we've been falling for so long,
Now your eyes are a sign on the edge of town, they offer a welcome, when you are leaving,
War all of the time, in the shadow of the New York skyline. we grew up too fast falling apart like the ashes of American flags,
When the pieces fall it's like a last-day parade and the fires in our streets start to rage so wave to those people who long to wave back,
From the fabric of a flag that sang "Love all of the time".
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[20 Oct 2004|02:49pm] |
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I'm asking everybody, if you got an extra wallet picture, you think you I could have it? I wouldn't mind having some pictures of my friends.
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[18 Oct 2004|07:26pm] |
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Do you remember when you were a child, when nothing mattered, when life was all fun and games....before reality set in.
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[17 Oct 2004|10:05pm] |
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Meeting tomorrow morning...
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[17 Oct 2004|12:16pm] |
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Got to drive a bit this weekend. Thank god cause I haven't driven in like a month and my test is in like a month. Played some monopoly friday night. got to hang out with CJ, and got to see Katie.
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[14 Oct 2004|09:23pm] |
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You know, it's sick how simple it is to get into a car accident.
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